I was going through my journals today, which I wrote during the time I went through the St. Ignatian Spiritual Exercises in 2004. The retreat lasted for 8 months, which I attended every Wednesday. This was a wonderful experience for me and it healed me in many ways. Some things in our journals speak volumes and you know they are of the spirit, for they are timeless. The words rang true then and the still ring true now. They also speak to many as opposed to few or just me.
I was asked to do an exercise, where I opened a conversation or colloquy with Jesus. In order to do this, all I had to do was be open and listen, as I meditated Jesus being on the cross. What do you have to say to me Jesus?
He said the following:
“I died so you could be free. Don’t let my dying on the cross be in vain. Live you life. Don’t concern yourself with how others should be, concern yourself with your own doings. Until you are perfect, do not judge. The only one who can judge is the one. Give up control and do not fuss. Yesterday’s complaints will soon be forgotten. Treat your loved ones, as if you only had that day. Be open and love and you will receive love. You get what you put in. Be patient. Remember I feel your pain and continue, when you block love. Do not cause chaos or stir the pot. You are stronger then you can imagine, because I am with you. Go in peace. Remember to love your neighbor as yourself. When you hold back, it will not be given. Bless and pray over your needs and give them up to God. Understand the process and believe in the process. It is as it is written and to be trusted. Have faith. Love conquers all. Let Go. Let God.
Then I get a little P.S.
“Remember what are your intentions? Is it to be right or righteous or is it to have love as the outcome? Let that be your barometer. Is your intention of love? Is it selfish or selfless? When you hear yourself say, what about me, you miss the mark.