This is my first painting of my #paint52 series. It has been quite awhile since I have painted. I have been drawing quite a bit, especially with the iPad, but I found that I needed to push myself to paint more. As usual I wanted everything to be perfect. I had a drawing ready to go. I had the little people all lined up, color pallet ready. It was going to be a painting for my San Francisco series that I need to complete. Right away I ruined it. I almost felt like I did it on purpose. My subconscious, I guess didn’t want to be so linear; it wanted to explore, it wanted to play. I threw the initial painting in the trash, pulled out a used canvas and let my mind go wherever ever it wanted. I let my brush do the talking. I had to get a lot of junk out before I can start painting anything worth keeping. So I let it go, I let it ride and the words came. “What’s Happening Here Ain’t Exactly Clear”. The painting started becoming shapes and fragments that I no idea where they were going. Then I felt a need to start a portrait. It isn’t great like I so wanted my first to be, but it was necessary, the process was necessary to move forward.
As I look at the painting, I realize the portraits that I have drawn so many times in my digital “Making Faces” series wanted to be explored. Also, the red hair, hmmmm “Who is that?” 🙂 I think Janet needs to come out and play. So I say for the journey that just started and is about to progress on for the year 2012, I say to you Janet, I give you freedom, freedom to discover who ever you want to be, however you want to paint. Let this be not only a discovery of your art, but a discovery of who you are.